therapy sessions.
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Benson. <3
You’d wake up in the embrace of my arms just as the sun shines through my window.
Morning graces & half glances from your beautiful eyes,
I’ve found myself already tangled in you.
If I could breath you in & swim in a sea of blankets,
I’d lay here for eternity w you.
In this most lucid moment, you’ve captured everything in me.
You asked me once to be yours forever,
My reply is yes w out a single doubt or hesitancy.“I love you”. In that simple sentence, I have deemed myself yours.
We are writing a story which is fashioning itself into a fairytale.
But fairy tales have endings & I promise that if I could, I’d write ours forever.
They say that the best kind of love stories are those which are unexpected.
Resembling a shooting star in it’s brightest form falling across the sky.
Well, I’ve caught you & in the grasp of my hands, I’ve made a wish.
Thank you for being the first to make them come true.
With you beside me I feel invincible, capable of achieving anything.
These hours & these minutes are passing much too fast,
I can’t seem to get enough of you, I crave you.
So I retraced my steps & relive our amazing memories.
In our quiet moments, I wonder if you’ve realized I can’t stop staring.
In those moments when our laughter fill the air
& the conversation we hold become the best nouns & verbs confined together…
You make me feel alive, up until this point I am contemplating,
how I’ve been able to live w out you.
I’ve woken up to you, you’ve invaded my thoughts so graciously,
& you’ve follow me into my dreams.
Baby, you’re not my first but in this moment of genuine honesty,
I hope w absolute certainty that you will be my last.
I have irrevocably & inevitably fallen in love w you.
& I hope that you will always stay on this pedestal I’ve placed you on.
Because cloud nine is the perfect beginning for a fairy tale.
I love you. -
In the end these things matter most:
How well did you love?
How fully did you love?
How deeply did you learn to let go?
–Buddha
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Speechful.
Track: Trouble - Coldplay.
I played tonight off like it didn’t hurt.
If I had any tears left, they might’ve graced my cheeks,
& flushed my skin w heat.
But I’ve been burned one too many times.
How do you describe the feeling of bring crushed?
Then pretend breathing is still a possibility after that kind of blow.
In actuality you’re trying to smile while crawling so low on the floor.
I wonder if your thoughts were filled w sincerity.
I’m wishing that my words have effected you.
I’m wishing you feel the same heaviness of sorrow I do.
Because admitting that you walked away w out a single scratch is unbearable.
I wonder if I played it off well enough so you can walk away easier.
Every beautiful girl deserve one moment of being saved.
Even if it kills me w a free fall without a parachute.
We’re falling apart in a moment in which we know we can never come together again.
This was all too soon.
The possibilities were endless but it all died tonight w one small sentence.
“I can’t give you the things you need.”
All I wanted was a little of your time but even that was too precious.
A sigh of aspiration as I write this.
A sigh of relief as it leaves me.
I don’t think I will ever be enough.
The deafening sound of defeat & utter rejection.
You say I’m used to getting my way but I say I’m much to used to this heartbreak.
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Note to self.
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“Once a man came unto me and
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